yay... happier day today... miraculous how the sun can do wonders? ;) i dunno what it is... but its nice... :) and its nice to have u sms me when i'm bored throughout the day too... thanks! :)

school proceeded as usual... nothing interesting... except tt michelle managed to make a silver mirror with one of her experiments... Jeanne Tan was jealous and took it!! :p haha... and i made a hole in my test tube stirring too hard. the contents was yellow, so it looked like this stream of pee coming out... :S anyway, jeanne tan was being surprisingly amusing today and nice to me... yay... :)

oh and inge wasn't lousy either - surprise! well, the pract was ok and i actually got many drawings done... haha... quite fun. well, everything is this much more enjoyable when u are feeling ok i guess. gosh, what i would give to feel like tt more often... :p

then had bio S... grp was presenting. had to rush through to do the presentation... brought my lap top so we could get it done after sch. well, it turned out fine... surprisingly since it was last minute work. guess we were lucky having got some basic topic.

and like a jinx... i made ferrero lose too... so everyone i have wanted to win has lost... :S

yeah bree... i've just been off... so off. and i dun even know why. is it the rain? tiredness? illness? what... gee... school is a drag. i dun feel like doing anything...

it was so horrible at one pt today tt i didn't even feel like attending lessons anymore. then again, i never do feel like attending bio. so i ponned again. inge is getting suspicious... she apparently went *hmmmm* after hs told her i was absent. she even asked, absent from school, or absent from class... well, u can't blame me if u can't teach.

and screw it. now andre loses. sure, it was an epic match, kept my adrenaline flowing... but i didn't like the outcome. after 3+ hours, i get to see him lose?!! shit... and did u see how sad he was? its the first lose at melbourne park since 1999, after 26 matches... sucks. totally...

whatever... any possibly nice thoughts i had to post have just disintegrated... sorry guys.. probably gotta get back to the horrendously thick pile of work tt i have overdue.

arghhh... this is so strange. Lost in Translation has opened in the US for 20 weeks... and its only sneaking in Singapore this week? wth... and its R(A)... shit... i so wanted to watch it... grrr... stupid censors. can't they tell the difference between an art, senseless massacre and porn? *rolleyes*

blogging now cuz i just got home n i dun have dinner to eat... am being punished for being a bad boy... *sniffles*... rite... ;) muddle headed parents thought i was eating out... WRONG... :p

haha... anyway Bio lect was horrid... *cringes*... ling was so amusing... called her a maid! and what was she wearing... YUCKS... get a fashion sense please. still have the cheek to ask me if tt looked nice? errmm... thank god i didn't puke and forced out a smile - or else i might have to be punished and made to listen to u lecture for another hour?!! :S

and my ct... he gave me a nice little ice cream... but so sad, i can't eat it cuz i'm sick... nooo...

went to al dente for lunch with nick... hadn't been there in ages... holland v in general... gosh, kinda miss the place and the nice food! next on the list of places is the laksa when my throat - which just refuses to get better - gets better. and damn, my ear is still partially deaf on the left side? as if i wasn't already impaired enough to begin with... heal!!!

lastest report on fencing treasury - its gonna be in debt. what's new... haha... j1s were so... forgettable. no one really striking... and interesting... couldn't really be bothered to train them, was just counting my money... well, tt's my job rite? ;) and i dunno what was wrong with me man... hadn't fenced this badly in ages... was quite depressed... always am when i lose like tt... :( and so tt was a terrible failure.

wanna try foil!! arghhh... hope i'm not so sluggish next time... i'd just die if i keep this up... :(

oh, and glad ferrero made it to the semis... hope he beats the crap out of federer and meets agassi in the finals. i'd be soo happy... ;) and i dunno what pple are talking abt... look at the semis, there are more high seeds for men in the semis than women. u sure the depth difference is *tt* great... well, its there... but maybe, enough abt it... it gets boring.

well, sorry i didn't really take yr advice huh... cuz i mean, when u are cold, hungry and coming off a few loses... u dun really feel like listening to advice sometimes... just sometimes... ;) but thanks for it... know u were concerned... :p

yes... before i begin to ramble about what a tragic day it was for tennis today... let's talk some crap! ;)

anyway, to begin... i got somemore presents... and yes... mama's present has got some practical use... but its also gotta rank as the most *interesting* presents of all... a tool box with a langerie receipt?!!! haha... amusing... anyway cm... nothing wrong with being ornamental... just tt everything just seems to be like tt... my room has limited space, can't display everything rite? ;)

and my hilarious class... got my such a flattering card - on the outside - then on the inside the messages are so FOS... either telling me to grow up, or telling me not to... its like a heated debate. but u just get the sense tt i'm not grown up or acting my age... ;)

kk... the day was boring... so should have ponned bio tut, too bad i didn't... was USELESS... gee... tried doing bio and chem S... must say chem S seems fun... bio... hmmm, just research so far? ok also la...

wah, then got such an awful headache at the Family Service Center... silly kids, forever rioting and not cooperating... not a good place to be when i'm sick... shall be more stern with them next week... grr... :@

and bio O training completely clashes with my fencing training... i can't miss them... esp since i need to take the sec 1s too...

now back to tennis... wah lao &$^%@%$*&!!!! Lindsay!! what the heck?!!! Oh gosh... u lost a gazillion chances to beat that wretched Justine!! i mean... u are like e only player left i would support in the draw man! y did u let up? u were doing so well... it was such a joy to watch... why suddenly stop playing well and lose to her?!! i couldn't bear to watch the second set... :(

and venus had to get reinjured after her comeback to fall to lisa raymond... wth... i was so looking forward to her kicking up a storm at melbourne! :( @#&$^#^&$ and momo just had to withdraw from QF with an injury... so now... idiotic justine gets a cakewalk to the finals... where she'll most probably meet kim, who can't play justine for nuts. and justine will get another slam and we get to watch some crappy shit finals. WHATEVER. come back serena... get well venus...

then, it was andre... he got thru... but was kinda sad cuz grosjean had to withdraw with an injury... i like watching grosjean too! :( ahh... go agassi... u are my only hope left... :(

hope the next slam is better... this one has been a really forgettable one...

yay, feeling marginally better today... hopefully will be fully recovered by wed... kinda sucky not to be able to do any physical activity... will be so lousy if i dun train... ;)

anyway, slacky day, just spent most of my day lazing around catching live coverage of the aussie open for once, instead of taped coverage... ;) managed to catch up on some work i hadn't done... wow... :p

hmmm, had many pple sending nice little msges... strange tt only 4 are from my class eh? haha... this just shows tt i'm not too close to them... ;) well, its alrite... only a year more to go, and most of the year will just be hectic. so sorry to all those who lugged my present around in vain today... suspect many of u just asked me how i was so u could scold me for making u lug the present around to no avail... ;) nah just kidding... u pple are nice pple... :p

and... is it tt hard to get me a present? haha... realised all of my presents except 1 has no practical use! just purely ornamental... maybe zp is rite... but tt still doesn't give u an excuse delay my xmas present for so long... ;)

and yes, decided i'm gonna gonna reject bio O training for international bio O... think i can do without yet another commitment in my life. it totally clashes with training...

so many days have passed in a twinkling of an eye... so much happened. too bad i've not blogged for sooo long...

let's see now... tuesday was the last day of sch, cuz cny celebrations dun count? ;) haha... was so tired... tried hard to look for presents, i couldn't think of anything at first, but when i finally did, i couldn't find the object. bah... so then, nick n i were gonna be late for cip, and tried to cab. well, just had freaking bad luck tt day, waited for abt 0.5 hours for one... got so tired... :( haha... then cip was quite fun la... went upstairs to get my kids down, their house is so small... sighs... was glad to see them so happy when i gave them my hard sought chewing gum... heh! :) then after celebrations, was time to get home... but damn, dad had some business thing, and had to cab again in the end... haha, talk abt luck man. and it took quite long to hail one, once again. actually, nick was worse off, he had to cab to sch in the morning as well cuz his mum's car broke down... poorboy... :p oh yeah, and i ponned bio tut... and stupid inge just had to notice i wasn't there... whatever... so i had to get a blueslip. well, it was quite easy though... :D

wed... haha... slackness... my class had an attendance of close to 9 i think? so miserable... was gonna pon cuz i was so tired, but decided not too cuz wanted to go out after tt... ;) zp, nick, weili, mark and i were trying to look for a place to pool, but damn, think they were all closed or sth. guess i was lucky tt i met daxson n he gave me the numbers to the shops so i didn't go there n discover tt it's not open, just had to call! :P and ruiming was helpful too...heh... :) ended up lanning instead... hadn't done tt in ages, and well, i kinda sucked... i can't do pc shooters for nuts... only console shooters... :p

left lanning and went parkway cuz i was looking for more presents... in the end couldn't decide whether to buy... geez, i'm so fickle... travel so far and then end up like tt... :P at least i did buy 1 present... took my quite long to find it... :p

new year's eve dinner was quite fun... gotta catch up with my cousin who just entered NS... haha, found out lots abt NS... its quite slack apparently... food now is catered, so its not bad, u dun even have to wash dishes!! and they let u use phones, just dun allow u to charge yr phones there... well, sounds good then... :) oh, and was so pleassantly surprised when my aunt decided to celebrate my birthday! ok, actually, it was my cousin's, her's plus mine... they are like 21, 22 and 24... so close... :) think i ate too much junk food tt day too... :p

new year's day... couldn't wake up early enough... reached my grandma's house too late, so missed out on lotsa gambling... dang... not bad la, at least i doubled my money... too bad i was playing so small cuz i was scared... :S hurhur... then went over to my other grandma's place... stayed there the whole day... gotta watch aussie open and played like 4+ hours of halo... so fun! :) haha... got quite a fair bit of money this year cuz got bday angbaos u see... not bad... but then i dun think i'll keep it considering how much i've spent recently... :S

the next day was spent just lazying around and studying for sats... refused to visit anyone... :o well, it was terrible cuz i just ate loads of junk food, and i think tt was y i fell sick. haha, should have listened to many many pple's advice... they all seem to think i'm a glutton... all their new year greetings said sth like, dun eat so much junk food, later fall sick again arh... haha... looks like i'm an obvious glutton... :s

so it was tt i fell sick again... had to take SATS, and ear was hurting so bad again during SATS... think i've screwed it up la... probably have to retake cuz i was doing so slowly thanks to my ear... couldn't really concentrate... sighs... not good. i pray i dun have to... :( tt aside, my days were great... yes, ear was not good, but got a really nice pressie from claire... a lava kamp! no, i didn't know u were gonna get me one, it was just coincedence... and haha, bree actually lent me her xbox controllers so could play 4 players halo... hurhur...

played tennis in the afternoon... stupid rain, it just wun stop... ah wells, at least got in abt 2hours of play? hehe... so sad, broke my strings again... ever so often... :p hmmm, then had to rush over to the chalet yihan n i booked for our bday! haha... was so fun... our bbqed food was actually edible, and we all got drenched in the rain. got a whole array of very... interesting presents... hmmm... yeah, so the nite was spent playing majong, 4 player halo and cards... and of course, bbqing... well, i must say, i love the pistol in halo man! woohoo... and it was nice cuz i won alot... :D and yeah, nick was damn lucky/good at mahjong tt day... wah, won so much... damn it... luckily i didn't lose $$... poor zp, lost quite a fair bit... :s but yeah, the day was so great... thanks everyone... love ya all... :)

slept at 5am... geez... no wonder i got more sick... feels quite bad today... went to see doctor. looks like i'd be missing school again... sighs... am never gonna catch up at this rate... :s

PS: to anyone asking, no, turning 18 doesn't feel any different... i dun feel the change... haha

tiring day... wanted to do PE, but aaron, so nice, went to tell Mr Tan tt i was sick after i ran 4 rounds, and Mr Tan forbidded me from doing anymore... if not, i would have to run like 4 more rounds? haha...

anyways, tut and stuff was really boring... then stupid bitch had to have make up chem lessons... WHATEVER! haha... at least she was nice to me today... like wk, hs, aaron, me and wp were sitting in a row, then, she had 4 qns for us to do on the board... she asked wk, hs, aaron, then skipped me and ask wp to do! haha... hs was so furious, and started protesting like mad. then avocado sorta implied cuz i was a better student... i almost felt bad for copying my tutorial... ;)

then went for training with nick... wth, was such a hassle with the rain and all. and the bloody problem is tt when i do get an umbrella, it decides to tone down... and later when i get a cab to go NUS, the rain also turns from this downpour to a tiny dizzle... geez... spent like a hell lot on cabbing today. at least i think for the training, it was worth it... what u say nick? :p

yups, so went for medical seminar... its sucked. so darn boring... ewww... so the only thing i learnt is tt pple get paid lots to be in this field... like i didn't know tt already...

and so i'm home at 9+ again, tired, with work to do, SATS to study for and aussie open to watch... haha, wonder what i should choose... :p i think the latter 2... ;)

PS: to u... didn't dare msg u even though u weren't in sch... didn't know if it'd make things worse... i know u were vomitting or sth... hope u are better now...

heh! feeling so much better today... :) ok, so my symptoms are in remission, but they are still there... thanks for e concern anyways...

a little preoccupied today with the arrival of my Xbox... oh its great. like a zillion times better than a PS2... i'm a convert! :) the graphics are better, it loads faster, has 8GB built in memory(!!.. PS2 has 0), 4 controller ports (PS2 has 2), the games for Xbox are also cheaper... its abt $30 cheaper... hell, tt's a lot! :D hmmm, and u can also connect to the net for multiplayer, u dun need to buy any add-ons... gosh, what was i doing with a PS2 man... :P

waiting for my Topspin to arrive... shall content myself with Halo first, its quite good... Bree, you've good taste girl... ;) haha...

been surfing round for blog templates, haven't really found any tt caught my eye... alert me of good sites if u know any k? ;) well, i think i should study for SATS... nick is like so much faster than me... :(

well, love this song a lot, and i guess its times like this i really appreciate such songs... anyway i wanna share it with you guys... :)

Turn Table, TLC

I used to walk around like
Nothing could happen to me
Life is a gamble so I
Should live life more carefully
But all I know is that I
Control my own destiny
I used to look at others
Instead of me blaming me

Bridge:
Don't ask yourself why
Just look to the sky
Believe that soon you'll see the other side

Chorus:
I know
That through all the struggle
There's a bright road
At the end of the tunnel
Now you should know
Whatever your dilemma may be
You'll learn
Life is worth it
Watch the tables turn

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

Whenever you feel troubled
With problems coming your way
Don't ever get discouraged
There's always a better day
We all don't know the answers
Believe and trust when I say
That havin' faith is always
The way to make things okay

Bridge

Chorus

That's right
Alright

You've had your ups and downs but
It happened for a reason
Cause after April showers
There will come a change of season
So please don't give up now cuz
The sun's shinin' through the clouds
It's gonna be alright
I know

Chorus

Chorus

Watch the tables turn
(Watch the tables turn)
Watch the tables turn
(Watch the tables turn)
Watch the tables turn
(Watch the tables turn)
Watch the tables turn
(Watch the tables turn)

man, today was just bad... f*cked up day. things went so wrong... seeing pple in a bad state - sucks. illness isn't letting up... bah!

sorry if i've spolit yr day with my morose self... tried to contain it, but wasn't tt successful all the time. please understand...

gotta make things turn around and get better, shall not let these set backs shake me. tomorrow WILL be better...

my illness got worse today... at like 4am last nite, woke up with an acute pain in my ear... i knew i had an ear infection. popped some panadols to stop the pain and went back to sleep... didn't attend school cuz i thot i really needed the rest now... the doctor apparently saw blood stains in my ear, and told me to avoid getting water into my ear. hmmm, if only i had listened to everyone else and seen a doctor earlier, then my cough wouldn't have spread to my ears causing this... lesson learnt... :p

anyway, i thought it was gonna be a sucky day where i lied in bed the whole day, but i guess it was far better. the various nice messages from pple who noticed i was absent invigorated me, made me feel missed! :p haha... so i felt happier, and somehow it just makes u feel better to know you've friends out there who care! thanks guys... *hugs*

tried so hard to study for SATS, but to no avail. my dulled senses made it quite impossible to get anything into into my head. sighs... this isn't good considering the piles of work that would inundate me since i missed lessons... :(

ah wells, at least CNY and my bday is coming... something to look forward to? :D

oh yes, and i d/l this really nice Megamix 2004 by Janet... whoever mixed it is really amazing. combined a great many of her hits into this 4.19 min mp3... and it runs so well, all the crazy beats flowing and combining into each other so seamlessly, it is just immaculate... :) love it! been listening to it over and over again... :D

hey! i know this is getting boring, but i'm so tired... :( this is just crazy, i'm just dead beat everyday, not able to concentrate. its such a chore even to move! :p its amazing how i even get work done... think i'll die if this keeps up... ;)

haha, now tt i got tt out of me, i shall proceed... :p

today was exhausting! wasn't intending to go cuz i was feeling weak and sick, but then, since there was a meeting at the end of the day, i had to go. haha, so i started e day quite pissy, with me and yixin blowing up at each other over the stupidest of things. ah wells, tempers are flying now adays. half the school seems depressed, its like a graveyard man...

anyway, training yesterday... hmmm, i dunno what to say. its not bad in the sense tt what i'm doing is working, but new stuff i'm trying... no, its ain't working. think i've to stick to what i know, i mean, competition is saturday man... must psyche up! :)

haha, other than the first part of sch, the rest of the day was quite enjoyable. i got to talk to so many different pple today... more than in goodness knows how long, and tt probably made me feel so much better throughout the day. realised there are many pple to interact with in school which i don't usually interact with... :p many nice pple in sch... :D

staying back for ex-co meeting was such a chore though. wanted to get home early for once this week cuz physics pract ended sooo early. bah, and as usual, those 2 were late. why even come? :S there is so much crap to do... @#^%$%&^ well, at least the school is nice, gave me a nice budget to work with, i wun be tearing my hair out over money matters now...

okie, so i gotta do tuts and actually study for sats now... brilliant. must perk up man...

lent yuan my laptop plug, so its running on batts... hope it can last... :s

anyway, damn tiring day... :( just got home at 9.30... thank goodness my dad picked me up...

ermmm, day in school was okie... double lect was okie too... haha, was just talking rubbish w nick the whole lect... oops... ;) DC circuits... wow... tt's confusing... :(

pe was killer!! arggh, this week is super chest exercise? wth... its like 4 sets of this: 10 pull ups, 20 push ups and 30 dips. its hell man... arms are so tired now... bah!! chem S briefing is seriously scary... wonder if i'm even up to it... :S haha, hope so. after chem S, rushed down to marina to get my replacement hp pouch, had dinner there, nick realised we were gonna be late, so cabbed for cip.

well, it feels quite nice to be there. nice to know my little kiddos miss me... heh! but they are as naughty as ever, not doing work... hiaz, gives me a headache their constant bickering and refusing to obey us. hmmm, then the other kid, asking me for $$, wth. haha, was playing with my phone too... well, at least i kinda bribed him into doing work with it... :) hope they'll be good kids, or they'll just screw up their exams like this... :(

anyway, wk and aaron (fyc) apparently bought similar shoes to mine. aaron bought the same one, color and all... wk, bought diff color. wth... so now all 4 pairs of my shoes, someone has. nick has same model, diff color as me for 2 fila... then adidas, andy has same one. haha, now 2 pple in class have same one as me... hey, is my taste good or what... ;)

kk, not making sense, think i'm too tired... cya... gotta rest... :P

*cough, splutter, sneeze*... well, tt's how i've been the past 2 days. i hate being sick... :(

cuz of my sickness, i went to school at 11am... so i only had to attend 2 hours of lessons b4 i'm dismissed. well, it was quite relaxing. yh was wondering y i even came since i was sick, well, cuz i wanted to go for fencing training. heh... :)

it was great. had a really tough exercise, tougher than in ages, and though i was kinda tired, was quite satisfying i guess knowing this will help me improve. then 1 on 1 with the coach, well, its good tt he at least sees sth in me, more than what i can say abt the other coach... ;) hmmm, i might actually have a little confidence for the upcoming team event... :D

anyway, tennis lessons after tt. thought my legs would die, but they didn't. its just too bad my head wasn't screwed on tight, let myself get distracted by too many things. so from a great performance, it just went down and down... ahh, whatever...

just realised i've just screwed myself so bad. my timetable is just horrendous.

monday: training till 6, then tennis till 8.
tuesday: chem s, then cip till 9+
wed: training till 6.30
thurs: 4.30!! :)
fri: bio s, then training till 9+
sat: training till 12 OR competitions till 7!! :(

well, i've like no time to do work or rest and enjoy myself. wow... i hope i wun die...

anyway, just a question... if u ask a guy, "Are you gay?" and he replies, "Many guys are gay nowadays"... hmmm, what do u make of tt?

was just reading yh's blog... haha, really think if anything, the spirit in RJ is really great. maybe tt's why in its rubbishy campus, its still glorious. the pple rock... :)

anyway, today... fencing comp. firstly, i was kinda dying, was so sick. sniffing, sneezing, choking, coughing and to top tt up, a splitting headache. really think i made a huge mistake to go down so early w nick today, the morning wasn't of much use, and i just felt quite sick.

so i skipped lunch, eating chocolate - so smart. just my luck, i was in the largest pool. everyone in the other pools have to fence 5 others, i had to fence 6. brilliant. whatever... i was in zp's pool, thank goodness, or i'd be so bored and have no one to calm me down... ;) haha... well, first 3 matches, i was fine, won all 3 5-2... then i got quite tired, and i was breatheless, due to my sickness, and i lost 4-5 for all 3 matches. well, i was kinda upset at tt point in time cuz the matches were so close and i could have won them if i had done something differently, but its useless to say tt now i guess. so after tt, we got our rankings, was ranked 15th, not bad la, was in the top half.

then i had to fence in direct elimination round, was more than 2 mins late for my bout, and shit, i got a red card, one pt penality. wth. ok, so i started, was in such a daze and quite pissed abt the pt penality, was down 1-5. gee, it all went so so fast till it was 3-7. well, so i calmed down, decided i can't rush to my doom, and i got it to 6-8 i think. then, i made the same mistake goodness knows how many times, and went down 11-14. so it was match point, 3 of them in fact. somehow, someway, i managed to get it to 14-14, was so proud of myself. then came the last pt... think i was too brave, taking risks so many times, twice i took a risk, and was lucky to escape unscathed... the third time... he won. damn... well, it was really close, and the guy was really gracious abt it... :) even gave me a nod of acknowledgement 30mins later...

ah well... the coach was presiding tt match. haha, he had lots to say abt tt match. i was making the same mistake a few too many times, excat same one. and he wasn't amused. he said, i would've won long ago if i didn't do all tt crap. well, i guess i'll take something away from tt.

think i've gotten a little stronger mentally, at least i dun break down when i'm down by some margin like i used to. kept all my loses close, and didn't give away my leads. guess, tt's what i've done rite.

thank u everyone for yr great support... :) edward - drinks, helping me round even though yr leg was injured... amand - drinks, cheering, consoling, advice... nick - support, advice, consoling, fun... haha... and zp - support, cheering, consoling, support! thanks man... :) thanks also to yanyeong (tan and poh), steff, joanne, mingchuan (or i'd have missed my match) and gladys... haha, u guys kept cheering and wishing me luck etc... :) wow, i sound like i've won so medal rite? haha, nevermind, pple who stick by u when u lose are worth thanking even more... :p

wow... so shagged... anyway, sadness, lost so many phone numbers... need them back man! darn... using my dad's 6610 he just bought till my 6230 is out sometime this quarter... this 6610... how does anyone use it? i just can stand it. crappy buttons, ugly design, such a far cry from my lovely 6100... :(

also, am glad to have saved a total of $52 this week even though i reached home past 8 4 times this week in sch. yay! so now, plus so savings, i should be able to get the 2 of u some present after i save more next week. but, i'll also eat more next week, shalln't starve anymore... :p

oh yes mama, zp n i stuffed some ice cubes down papa nick's ass the other day... melted in his underwear... are u turned on? ;)

hey, quite high now after O Nite... was just fabulous!! :)

after the drudgery of Bio S, went to watch the O Nite performance at the hall... was so amusing. highlight has gotta be Naunice (sp?) acting as Britney! Haha, during bio pract, we were just amazed tt it was actually possible for someone to make Britney sound good. well, now i know why, its a guy trying to sing Oops i did it again. LOL... anyway, he was dressed like her, and being like her... slutty... but it was all so funny... in the end, he won best singer, not surprising, beating yh, audry, kevin...

next, i met up w my og for dinner! woah, so glad to see them after so long... :) jon, julia, huiling, cheryl, alex, jeremy, cm and leslie went for dinner! great to see some of u guys after so long. we were damn happy, high and crappy during dinner. it had been so long since we had dinner together, late after school, just for fun, for each other's company. julia, she was so happy to be back at ghim moh eating, cuz she missed the place so bad... well, dinner was great, but we had to go back for camp fire... :)

being back there, the feeling was great. it was like the same experience, that nite... we were just so ebullient!! we danced, we cheered, we sang, shouted... we just had so much fun and went crazy. it felt like the past, only we weren't standing at the patch of grass in the netball court, but up on the podium. jeremy and julia were hilarious, inventing their own dances for the songs, doing silly moves, but hey, all in the name of fun... reminds me of the many things we did to bond. i must say, it worked. :) then suddenly, this bunch of 3 pple came screaming at us... yilan, winston and christelle!! our 3 ogls had returned to us. there were wild embraces, and much raw emotion. did izzyla, well, didn't remember any steps, but leslie did... woah... then was praying hard tt we would do rain dance, cuz i so wanted to do a dance tt i had an idea of how to do. my wish came true, and so i just grabbed the nearest girl, who happened to be yilan and danced! so so fun! :) oh, and nick n zp, haha, during a song, reach, they decided it was fun to lift me up whenever the word reach was sung, until they realised i'm not 10kg... nice try guys... ;)

then came the last part... the goodbyes. we took yet another photo of ourselves... we have had so many... then we visited Sunsera, Unser's junior og. yes, i'm sure u see the similarity. anyway, we found them eyes closed, saying their wishes and what they thot abt this orientation. we formed a ring abt them, and the candles they had in front of them, all so familiar. it had become a tradition... i remembered us doing the samething last year. then, we had some intro thing, and all the stuff abt tradition, more photos. and the thing abt our zaecov, yeah, i realised it wun be there next year... sadness. feels kinda sad tt i didn't go towards the end of the year last year... awwww... well, at least our spirit will live on. Unser spirit... :) yes, to after even more photos, till our legs and mouths were cramping, we went off for fear of being locked in... really meaningful nite. for a long long time to come as well i expect.

wanna thank all of u for being such wonderful pple. love u all... can't believe 15 of u turned up in the end... really glad to be able to share this nite with each and everyone of u... thanks... :)

Just came back and had dinner. god, i was starving... haha...

wow, happening day man, quite a good one too! :) early morning has stupid exco meeting, and yj was so late tt he came when the meeting came... :S then, hs simin and me tried to cut wk's hair. haha, i was deemed the hopeless one... oops, but hey! the hair looked fine... :p

after school, had lotsa fun. was bumming around in the canteen talking to yh and some of his friends, serene and shuwan... oh shane too... was quite funny, helped pass time b4 senior-junior class meeting. tt was just hilarious. we had this game, where we had watermelons, sliced into half, then, the class split into different grps, had to eat the watermelon as fast as they can with their bare hands, without splitting the shell. if u aren't first, u get the watermelon shell on yr head. haha, my grp won, so i was safe... :) then, it just erupted into this mad watermelon fight, with everyone trying to put watermelon on everyone else's head. mag. she was nuts, screeching away... was like this banshee. think one of the junior class pple called her sonar detector or something. i chased her, then she turned into this dead end, then she just kept on screeching, i didn't dare to dunk the watermelon on her - wait she shout molest, then i'm dead. haha... poor yixin, she got surprised attacked from behind while just standing there. oops! :D think our junior class must've thot we were mad.

then, was suppposed to go orchard with yh for dinner, but he forgot he had meeting, so another day... so went to watch storyline... hmmm, quite nice. the j1 dance is quite nice too, but think ours, is just better... :) cm was being amused by miss chia stories... :p

after tt joined zp's class for china hearts... (haha, mama, u care for a challenge?)... its such an interesting game!! and i did so well for first try... *ego*

oh, what a coincidence, the high profile supposedly *chio bus* tt yixin and wanping showed me during lunch break... they were standing close to each other... then i found out tt they are both in zp's class. heh... haha... but they aren't tt pretty leh... all e hype...

then went home with this huge bunch of pple... and ling... wow, she so naggy lor, kept asking me to eat dinner, on the way ask me so many times to buy food. then b4 she got off the train, still ask me to go eat w her so i wun get gastric... haha, thanks a lot... u are so concerned man... :p oh, made a new friend, sort of... haha... and huishan, yr scgs chio bu is tt person's class... hurhur...

hehe, am surprised qiantai still remembers my bday... hey, u really deserve the respect i have for u man... ;)

think i'm not tired cuz i'm high... ;)

phone is 'beyond repair'... sighs. there goes one of the most important gadget in my life. and i really liked it. darn... and i can't find any replacement tt i like rite now, so i'm not getting one anytime soon. sighs, the 6230 is damn nice, but the release date is not set yet, i do hope it's b4 CNY... :)

haha, quite a slack day today, didn't really free to tired. as usual, my timetable is fab for the first 3 days of the week, then its horror for the next 2... haha. anyway, was quite funny, bought prawn mee for hs today, added half a tub of chilli in, and she died eating it. oops, it was so hot i coughed badly after a sip of the soup. lost my blue shaker, it was new!! its out of stock, so had to get an orange one... :(

stupid 165 bus. zp, nick and i were gonna take it to go clementi. i flagged it, turned round to get my bag, and next thing i knew, the bus was driving off. wth was tt?! in the end, zp was so annoyed, he actually wanted to cab. LOL... training was more like free fencing today. not like i minded, was quite happy to actually... until i lost. first match i played was fine, was a close 4-5 lost to jason. but then, i lost to him 0-5 the next time... and yet another lost to kenny made me really upset and demoralized. was sulking and being sour... but hey, those 2 ever great friends, tried really hard to encourage me and all, well, wasn't listening at first, refused to fence. in the end, i realised myself tt i do wanna, and i wanna win, so when jason asked me again, i agreed. and i beat him 5-1... haha, next 5-2 yanyeong, then 10-4 aman... too bad i lost to yanyeong 8-10 in the end. but well, maybe cuz i was delibitated... :p wasn't so bad after all. thanks u pple! :)

ooo, then went parkway to get my new specs. haha, nick went with me... hmmm, he said its fine. i guess it is, but it totally changes my looks, look so much more mature and totally changes my look. sophistication... haha. too bad its making me see everything so small.. :s

interesting day... :P jeanne tan was being bitchy again, as usual, picked me to answer a qn... wth. every lesson. :rolleyes: whatever. well, at least i was in the company of jisam, so maybe she was thinking tt i was smart. i had better be. grrr...

super long break today. saw my other ogl!!! wow... so happy to see him after so long. wth, i couldn't really recognize him at first. he had his eyebrows plucked... looked so differently, but well, he had the guts to... :P found out he's gonna go into NS on 15th Jan... at least he'll be coming for O Nite... yay... seeing almost everyone... :)

then had an awfully long double lecture... but yeah, nick, u always make the lectures seem short... thankfully... haha... during the interval between the lectures, which we created ourselves more likely... was having a chat. mama had lots to complain abt... haha... abt how pple sitting around her were bimbos!! complaining abt how their purple pens didn't work on low quality paper.... hmmm... hope u weren't talking abt shun wei... ;) and the first thing she said, "Finally, with sane pple!"... she said i was sane?!! *gasp*

haha... then PE... ouch, my legs are still aching... wth. ran, then, had to jump across e basketball court, when at the other end, do 20 squats, then jump back, 20 tuck jumps. repeat 3 times. then run somemore. wah... painful... :( well, oh a brighter note, the girls got Miss Poon... *sniggers* so i my guess was rite... hahaha...

okie, kinda wasted trip to parkway. phone wasn't ready... bah... think its too damaged, so need more time to repair. sadness. but well, what do ya expect after it got rolled over by a car? hmmm, at least i followed nick to buy a cake... haha...

gee, i really need to catch up on work. half my notes from end of last year are empty, then my tuts are missing, nothing is ever done. gosh... wonder how i scrapped through promos. maybe i am rite... sch is useless. self studying is better. haha...

maybe i should just bury myself in work. maybe i'd feel exhausted and forget everything else happening around me.

god damn shitty start to the day. bloody phone got rolled over by a 10 ton car, screen cracked, so hey, it doesn't work. and that @%&$& car just had to roll over my phone in front of my eyes when i could do nothing. and everyone's first reactions is, "What?! Hahahaha..." and everytime someone looked at the phone, they'd go, oh, just change the cover, it'd be fine. then they look closer, oh, tt's not the wallpaper, "Oh my god, why like tt?"... whatever. and it just has to be then when my phone is down, i get tonnes of msges, and i dunno who they are from! so every msg i've to go, "Sorry, who is this? My phone got rolled over by a car, so i've lost my contacts." whatever.

pe. haha. running and running, how fun. yes. then the rest of the day was slack, so i guess it was fine. was having some laughs during class as well... haha. didn't wanna go learning journey cuz have went there b4, and i really wanted to get my phone to the repair shop... but Mr Chan, as inflexible as ever, didn't accept my reason, so i had to go. ah wells, at least lunch with class was fun and amusing... :) then learning journey didn't turn tt bad, had a feel more laughs, thank goodness, needed to perk myself up after the disaster of a day. mixed round with different portions of the class, hadn't really done tt since i dunno when...

and during the learning journey, i made a comment, a tad too loud. was listening to the parliment debate thru the translation thingie just for kicks, then i found it... not up to standard, so i proclaimed it was lousy. the guide heard me, and she was quite sharp abt it. going on abt how it was hard to translate live, and how i should go take over next time when i graduate etc. everyone was just having a good laugh... :P

oooh, and i caught a frog today!! it was being slow and lousy, so i caught it. all the girls, tsk, so scared of the frog, running away from it even when it was in a plastic bag... tsk tsk...

at least now, i really love nokia. they actually didn't charge me for a change of my LCD screen! the lady at the counter said she'd make an exception... hehe... maybe she took pity on my plight... ;) but well, she said she'd never seen a phone in such bad state, so no gurantees... :( got new specs fitted too cuz my degrees increased, quite cheap, hope they look nice... :)

and u... sighs. why were u doing tt to me? pe, then bio too? hmmm... whatever la, dun even think u'd think i'm referring to u...

ahhh... lazy sundays... :)

tt's how i like to spend it! refused to go out with parents, so now am home alone... :P woke up so late, there was hardly much of a day left. spent it in a comatose state anyway. i did achieve something... finding this new browser. sort of... it uses IE, but then, its got many cool features. like, its multi-tabbed, so it let's u open many windows in the programme and it doesn't clog up yr task bar, and saves memory space. and it has a built in pop up killer and is quite smart too, cuz it knows when u want the window to appear, and when not. and if u happen to go to those &%*# sits where a zillion pop-up appears, there's this button to close all of them! haha... :) well, the programme is avant go... try it if u are bored... ;)

gee, i dunno how i'm ever gonna get my pile of hw done. sighs, wonder why i'm procrastinating again...

oh yes, i changed some stuff on the left... added more links too... haha...

gosh, body is feeling awful today... wokeup and had no appetitie for breakfast... while playing tennis w cm n yh, tummy was being painful, and head was kinda spinning a little. after lunch, when i went out, it was just terrible. felt like i was floating round, like i might faint any moment... at least its kinda better now after some sleep and panadol... :)

started with tennis in the morning. due to my body's discomfort, wasn't excatly playing well... well at some points, but badly mostly. seems i love to tighten up when things get close nowadays. with all the doublefaults flying in... i ought to do something abt this. sighs, lack of match practise? hmmm... haha, think we were all charred thanks to the sun. maybe that's what brought abt my headache... :(

after lunch, met nick to do some shopping!! had lotsa pressies to buy. firstly, brought him to a shop to see if he wanted this sword thing cuz it was quite ex... well, he liked it, but i think not enough to warrant me spending tt much $$ i guess... i'll think of sth else. hmmm, tt was a long walk to far east... ;) then went over to isetan and shared jl's xmas pressie, some hp pouch thingie since he's getting a new phone. next, went over to taka to get pressies. i got hs's bday present at kino and nick got yh's one from there, not saying what... :P then went into taka, and i got my mum's bday pressie, this really adorable keychain, large enough for her too!! got claire's bday pressie and saw this thing i thought would be useful for me... shall ask my mum... ;) next, we wrecked our brains for bree's bday pressie, and decided to get this thing from kino... haha... running up and down. then nick had a brilliant idea - walk all the way back to far east to get this pressie for emily's bday tt caught his eye just now. some finding nemo notepad. so begins our trek there. haha... so now, am left with yh's bday n xmas pressie, and nick's xmas pressie. will have to wait... am broke. :(

oh yeah, just wanted to say thanks once again for the lovely piece u wrote nick. its really sweet, really appreciate it... :) i know we'd remain friends forever. best at tt too... :)

dunno how much i said actually sunk in or if it helped at all. just know i'm too drained n tired now. i just hope those thoughts be gone, and the healing process starts.

am i unfeeling...? haha, 2 pple said i was tonite. cold hearted?

doing what i did... it was so hard. so so hard.
hope i did the right thing.

damn, and all these depressing songs playing.

its late... no one to talk to... feel drained. not physically.

no more pretense from u either. i was honest throughout too... which is why i did what i did. if i wasn't honest... it might not have happened...

does anyone understand what i'm going through now? ha, mona lisa smiles.

why did u have to do this to me? what did i do to deserve tt... heck, u just made everything worse.

and to u... i can understand y u are telling me what u are, i dun blame u... just hope i can make u feel better.

just sent a really long email to my fellow unserians, asking them to turn up for o nite. great og... hope they all turn up for O Nite... :)

today, first day of school. well, somehow, was very thoughtful the moment i woke up, and probably was till lessons started. guess its really all the fun and bonding tt i experienced during orientation last year - it was really unlike anything i've experienced b4. memories are still strong there. seeing all the lost looks of the new comers, as they examine their surroundings, and cautiously enter the hall, the way their whimpers slowly evolved to all might cheers over the course of the day. well, it brought back some memories. really great ones. regret SO much not signing up as an OGL... sure it'd have made things busy, but heck, i think its all worth it. damn... really really regret it. but i guess it was still great to be able to soak up the feeling as i watch orientation unfurl, and having yh tell me occassionally what was going on behind the scenes. met my ogl... she gave me a big hug, was so happy to see her again... :) ahhh...

hmmm, then sch. was in no mood for it at all. didn't help tt we have to face tt bitch for 2 hours and 40 mins. wth. so much chem in a day. and she as usual, had to pick on me the very first day of sch. make me present and point out all my mistakes. whatever. well, timetable is better i guess, but fri and thurs are still horror days.

guess, it was good to be able to catch up with friends i hadn't seen in sometime... :) was glad tt pple thot the photos from aus were nice, well, i think they looked nice... haha.

but u... i guess i know why u looked so gloomy the whole day. guess its my fault. felt really sucky at the end of the day, the more i thot abt it. no words exchanged the whole day. was just this look. i dunno what to do anymore. well, hs said u thot i didn't really care... hmmm, well, if tt's what u really think, i dunno what to say. and u know, i think u do have to help yrself, rite now, i dun think anyone can help u get over this. i'm sorry, but i guess, u have to do it yrself. hs told me i should leave u alone, not talk to u, guess i'll take her advice. the reverse doesn't help anyway... hope u do get better then.

okie... so me and hs just walked round for hours after sch while i was waiting for nick cuz we were dismissed like an hour earlier from bio pract.... haha, was fun, got to play with the J1s... i had this 100 Plus can, cold and wet. so we went up to all the blindfolded pple and plastered the cans next to their faces. was dun to see their reactions. some shreked, and one even cursed at hs in some foreign language. she was sooo pissed... haha. oh, and she spent such a long time looking for this girl she thot was chio, well, thot she was ok, not worth *tt* much time though.

then met up w zp and nick after such a long time, guess we got fed up with waiting for each other? haha... zp, funny as usual... then talked to nick for quite long, made me feel a little better. thanks lots... :)

Happy New Year one and all... :)

Been so tired the past 2 days... never felt like tt during the hols b4, hope i wun die when school reopens... :S dunno if i'm looking forward to the new year... its so... daunting. the only thing i look forward to is probably more time with friends n family? i mean, the year after would be sucky - ns. shall have to treasure this year then.

New Year's Eve was an ok day... went to watch Mona Lisa Smile with claire... cuz well, she had a performance later in the day, wanted her to relax... :) Not sure if i succeeded or whether she enjoyed it... she seemed to have - hope she did. really glad i found a certain shop too, as luck would have it, this person gave me a card for the shop... shall return in a few weeks time. movie was quite ok, entertaining, i mean how can it not be with such a talented cast??! but well, the themes in the movie weren't well developed. u can feel the movie going down a certain path, but it changes course before developing the area. pity. all the potential wasted.

after tt, was contemplating going to boonlay for countdown w weili n visiting zp n claire. but i kinda forgot tt the day b4, yuan asked if i could play tennis n i said ok... so he was at my house, i had to go back. considering how crappily i played, i kinda regret it... ;) then he stayed till 10.30, so i figured it was no point heading down to boonlay only for less than 1/2 hour... ah well, at least rj won the cheerleading stuff, so its not so bad... but i guess staying at home had its nice surprises too... nick called cuz he was w his dad n bored... so i finally got to talk to him after 2 weeks... and yup, another year passed when he was on the phone... haha...

thanks for all the well wishes pple, how all my, and your wishes and dreams do come true... :)

today was just silly... just went round and round with my family, looking for a new phone for my dad. wow, after like 3 hours... the result? still no phone bought. geez... well, actually, we kinda decided on the 6220, but no stock... :( realised i like my phone a lot... even though my dad asked me to change my phone... i actually didn't agree... nothing caught my eye. quite amazing man. if my phone had more memory, i swear it'd be perfect... :) so here i am tired and all... just did up my photo album though. looks quite nice i'd have to say... :)